Semi-Charmed Life

Unhealthy Addictions

It's been a while since I've posted, but thanks to those who for whatever reason still read this blog and actually noticed. I remember someone asking me once why I don't post more and the simple truth is that I'm pretty lazy with this stuff and that I actually hate writing. The only reason I have a blog is that I feel it's important and also healthy to express my thoughts like this. I've tried a journal before and also tried writing in Notepad on my computer but it just never worked for me.

Anyway, since my return from Asia I have not really done much. I've been focusing all my free time on grappling and it's at the point where it's become an unhealthy addiction. Unhealthy in the sense that I often choose going to the gym over more healthy, normal human social interactions such as dinner or happy hour.

In the month of December alone I've racked up 10 training days. Today's only the 12th! I actually broke my own record of hitting the mats on a consecutive basis. I trained everyday from Monday right up until today for a total of 7 days, and I'll probably train straight up until Wednesday before my snowboarding trip next weekend.

As with all choices in life, it all boils down to making the best choice possible under a given set of constraints. For me, the constraint has been money. I've been a financial mess ever since my trip to Asia. It didn't help things at all that once I got back, I blew a lot of money on random things I wanted for myself. I guess I was still in vacation spending mode.

Grappling is a sunk cost, so it makes the most sense to me to divert all of my free time towards that instead of other endeavors.

The most unfortunate part about all of this is that for the amount of time I spend training, you would figure that I'd be fucking phenomenal. Nope. I lost out in the genetic lottery pool in the athleticism department and I'm a slow learner to boot.

The bright side of all this is that when I do notice improvements in my game, you can be damn sure that it took a little bit of blood and a lot of sweat to get there. What is actually pretty amazing when I think about is how I'm still managing to find it interesting and enjoyable when it's clear I have no talent for it and I get my ass kicked on the mats more often than not.

When I'm not on the mats, I'm either lifting or running. I don't do either as much as I'd like but given my time constraints, I'm happy that I can even fit it in my schedule.

Sometimes I wonder why the hell I like to keep myself so busy physically. I think I do all this as a way of channeling my self-diagnosed ADD into something positive, but at the same time it's also interesting to note that all the activities I enjoy doing are not generally social activities. Fuck man, I mean if I'm going to be a social misfit at least I'm going to be one that's in shape.

But seriously though, I do think it's unhealthy of me to be so focused on these anti-social hobbies. If anything, I'm at least generally self-aware.

Next weekend will be a nice change of pace from everything though.

SNOWBOARDING WOOOHOOOOOO!

I'm going to Killington next weekend and we are rolling DEEP! I love riding with a big group, especially with skilled riders who can keep up.

Until next time . . . PEACE!